Kenangan Terindah...

Kenangan Terindah...

Yana & Hafiz

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Paranoidkah Aku??

I have to confess, I have someone else in my life before I met my beloved husband.

I was betrayed, cheated & ill-treated in my previous relationship so when it finally came to an end, most of friends and my family were relieved. They really think I'd be better off him.. & I deserve better. I was devastated still, not knowing how to continue living.

After months of tears & pain, I finally managed to move on.

I've moved on indeed, however, with baggage.. emotional baggage.

I become bitter & have problem to have faith in relationships.

Then I met my husband, 2 years after that.

I think he did realise that I have issues, he pointed it out several times.. but I still refused to believe that I do have issues. I thought I've escaped from my previous relationship unscatched, how wrong I was!

It took me more than a year with him to finally be ready to consider getting married. Even before our engagement I still had a thought of postponing the engagement.. I was scared.

Even until now, I still find it hard to have faith in him. I keep thinking that one day, everything.. my hapiness, the love.. will be ripped off me once again.
I know it's taking a toll to our marriage, me being bitter & posessive.

Paranoidkah aku???