My TTC Journey ~ Ectopic Pregnancy

Not long after the doctor confirmed my pregnancy, I had a terrible pain in my right side abdomen.

On 23rd Feb I had no choice but to rush to ER, hospital Selayang. The doctor then referred me to gynae specialist for further investigation.

The gynae specialist came to conclusion that my pregnancy might be an ectopic.
The laparascopy was scheduled to be done as soon as possible.

I couldn't describe my feeling at that time.. I cried in front of the doctors and nurses. I waited to be pregnant for more than 1 year.. and now when it finally happened, it was going to slip away from our hand. Ya Allah, tuhan saje yg tahu how my feeling was that time.

Hubby stayed by my side to confort me.. he asked me utk bersabar.. the most important thing for him he said, was to see me safe. I know deep down he was also sad..

At 12.30 am, the nurses prepared me for the surgery. The doctor said they will check if the pregnancy was inside the tube. If it was indeed a tubal pregnancy, they have no choice but to terminate it.

At 1 am I was sent to the operation theatre.

At 4.30am, the surgical team woke me up and the nurses took me back to the gynae ward.

Hubby came to me and told that they had terminated the pregnancy and since my tube was already leaking, they had to remove my right fallopian tube as well. I cried again, I felt so useless and sad.

The next morning, doctor checked on me and said I was doing fine. The doctor also explained that they've found out that my left tube is ok and I still have chances to get pregnant again. However the doctor advised us to wait for few months to ensure that I'm ready to get pregnant again.

Semua ni really made us sad.. rasa kehilangan sgt and to be honest I don't know if I could go through all these again. I still want a baby.. more than anything.. tp at the same time, rasa sgt takut..

Ya Allah, berilah kekuatan padaku.. berilah petunjuk agar kami bersedia mnghadapi sebarang kemungkinan.. dan berkati lah usaha kami.. permudahkan usaha kami selepas ini.. jauhkanlah sebarang masalah dlm usha kami selepas ini... kurniakanlah zuriat kepada kami Ya Allah... Amin..